feeling really bad...

im killing myself because of you
you give me hope
but in the end you said that
go away from my life!!!

my day was like really bangang today....
first:im feeling not well
second:when i reach home my aunty keep talking to me although i said i was tired but she keep talking n talking.
third:i found out something that make me wanna forget about him forever n ever(i promise)

when i wake up from my sleep..i can feel that today is a bad day for me...yuppp..and guess what im right...im feeling sad..its hard for me to explain...senang citer all kinds of negative thought is in my mind right now....its hard for me to erase it cause its kinda involving my own feelings....just a couple minutes ago..i found out that the guy who was always in my prayer,love another women...maybe it is my fault too cause i put too much hopes towards him...i cant believe it..im sad because of damn guy....fyi i wont feel sad because of man but this one is different he crush my heart like he crushed a house by using a backhoe....i just cant express my feelings right now cause in my condition(not feeling well)n this kinda heartbroken.. i don't know what to say cause u know what its better for me to forget him and focus on my study...dude..if theres somebody who can fix the situation..but right now...i wanna cry but i cant cause im not that kinda girl...i think i need to stop...i just cant express my feelings anymore....im sorry if im disturbing your life all this while...:(


p/s:please give me ur idea on how to forget love ones....


eat ice cream,remember me:(
~nad~